I've come to realize how much of a control freak I really am. I was really apprehensive about embracing this side of me because the term "control freak" had a different meaning when I was growing up. It was often used by my mother to describe my brother who would psychotically try to control everything and everyone around him. What it means now, to me, is that I just have to be the boss of any activity I am involved in. Here's a good example: I needed new glasses and was literally walking around for days nearly blind. We waited because we needed money to go to the eye doctor. In walks Vance's mom with money saying she'll pay for my glasses. On a Saturday morning she told me I needed to call the Dr's office in the mall and make an appointment so I could get glasses. My natural response was to say no, it's Saturday, thats a stupid idea and thats not my doctor and I would rather see my doctor on Monday. Thats how I had envisioned it and planned it in my head and you can't just waltz in here from nowhere and try to change it. Doesn't matter how much more sense that idea made, the point is these are my eyes, my plans, and I do what I want to do. I ended up getting an appointment with the mall Doctor that Saturday and getting my glasses. But do you see what I mean? I'm a Taurus, it is our nature to be stubborn just so we can have our way. By owning up to it I feel like I can use my super powers of irrational stubbornness for good.