I got my IUC inserted yesterday. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I don't know why, after getting pierced, tattooed, and having given birth I was so afraid if the 5 minute procedure to stick a copper thingy into my uterus. I've spotted a little and cramped a lot since having it put in, but it was no big deal. I feel like I can look safely into the future and really focus on just raising Deven and working on my career and education. And not worry about accidents of the human child sort.
Speaking of which, I've decided that now is the time for me to buckle down and start working on it. I don't know if I have ever mentioned this on here, but I never graduated high school. I dropped out before 9th grade ended, tried homeschooling, but that didn't work out either. I couldn't stay focused or interested and things at home were terrible at that time. Okay, thats the story for a lot of kids. But I never got my GED.
Thats right, I have been out of school for 6 years now and I still haven't done it. It's a simple 5 part test, and I have used every excuse in the book to avoid it. The truth is that I have managed to do alright without it. I've had decent bullshit jobs in the past or someone to foot the bills, so I've just been able to put it behind me. I still allowed myself to fantasize about going to college and studying Journalism and then one day becoming a successful columnist for the Times... but you can't do any of that without first getting at least an equivalence.
I have lacked the confidence to do it. My biggest fear is failure...there I admitted it. I'm so afraid of screwing up that I just don't even bother trying. And dropping out in the ninth grade is a big deal, even for the GED. I've taken classes and done a lot of independent study and at this point I am so very close to being ready. I need to do a little bit of brushing up and then I am so there.
And I even figure out what I am going to do afterwards. We all know that with the baby and possibly having to get a job in the near future that attending classes isn't really plausible for me. So I decided to look at online options when I stumbled across this. It's right up my alley! Seriously, I haven't been excited about the prospect of college, well, ever. Vance and I agreed that we could both take online classes and sort of keep each other focused. We would put aside an hour a day to study together. Anyway...yeah this is exciting.
And so now, I need to blow dry my hair and do the dishes. I am so going to Starbucks after dinner. Until then I am leaving you with another Electric Six video: